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MaaMe™
Noun: Ghanaian name; meaning- mother like figure

so i gave up soda for lent
but i just had a coke
i got to do better

the southerner in me wants crawfish
but the new yorker in me craves a hot dog
fully loaded and an apple snapple

i gots to go back soon
hopefully ill be goin to Chi town too
gotta hit up oak park
then while im there i visit fam in wisconsion
and ill even stop by that same little panda express thats on the way
from chi to mill-wal-ke

Rob told me i was boy crazy today
the thing is im not though

im guessin he thinks that only because ive
been through 2 guys within the last 18 months
and 1 was a mutual friend of ours

but then again the guy im kinda feelin now
is another mutual friend of ours

what the hell is wrong with me...
i havent really ended things with me & Mister(as he would like to be called)
then i havent told that whack boy i refer to as Yellow that i dont like him
all the while im crushin on a dude i barely tlk to, correction TXT not.
i dont even know if hes feelin me, i really dont like not knowin
then he might be with another broad....
darn nab it... hopefully ill know soon enough

but this guy has me not being my self usually im
confident and sure and headstrong
but since ive never went for a guy like him
i dont know what to do

maybe i should try to chill with him sometime
& see what kinda vibe i get from him
idk this dude got me bendin backwards

so......now....

so i was talking to this gu last night/early this day
and i really didnt feel like talking to him

he wanted to talk about whats going on between he and i
and since i dont wanna be straight out mean unless im in front of your face
i let him talk

sadly i have no feeling for him what so ever
nada zip nothing

then he tries to make me feel him
talkin about how
when he tells people hes feelin me they respond by
sayin dont tlk to her shes ugly

sadly i dont give a flying fuck about him or his friends
this is one of the main reasons i didnt go to MCK
no him per se but the fact that most of the people there
would just keep me stuck in the old me
and not allow me to move forward and become a better me

ugh im gonna have to be real with this guy soon
i dont wanna lead him on when i have no feeling for him

decisions decisions

self destruction

the body in which my heart resides
is what I've been searching for all this time

my mind has become the gathering pool
of all my thoughts

inward expression is the cause of my deep
depression

if only my outward senses could actually
convey my need for human compassion

the touch the feel the need of love
is my life's obsession

thoughts racing on a highway
with no limit i crash

the sudden stop has me thinking
inwardly once again

my life has become a shambles
pieces strewn everywhere like
the glass's reaction to impact

beware of the sharp edges
one prick and i bleed

blood flowing from every orifice
i slowly begin to drown

deeper in my own thoughts

~~~~~

Woman
Mature
Shapley
Curvy
in all
the right
places
hips
thighs
lips
soft
lush
body
of
EVE
from
adams
breast

lost in the transitions

dope
the equvilent of the kick i own
realize i say kick
not kicks

ill
the equvilent of my inner being
the makeing of me an
the kick i own

dead
gone just that im not
watching the hands go by on the clock
the game its self

forgotten
just behind a tree
no one sees the person that is me
i wonder if they'll ever remember

lost
deep in my own thoughts
wondering what will become of me

dope in the making if me and the kick i own

Look Within - GB

alah...
im at the washateria...
lmao
my wireless wasnt working
and they got it here for free soo...
doin my hustle
lmao
....
had that ICA/AF show today
it was beastly
didnt really have a part but
i was on stage though
it was
....
thinkin bout my super boo
cause i got another session with em
lmao
....

Liberry

yeah im sitting
in the school liberry
talking to KA and mizz fortenberry
im flowin like potatos and gravey
....
lame
....
sadie hawkins is the 13
i dont know who i wanna ask
i do
but i dont want to be turned down
i dont like guys who are unsure of what they want
....
take hingle next since were on activity
gonna do my skit with paxton
(who is a GREAT musician as well as student)
then French
Je ne suis pas parler francais bien. Je parle tres mal parce que je n'etudie pas.
je voudrais alle mieux en francais! mais.....je ne sais pas...

random french moment
....



this is what a zooflagellate looks like!
nasty huh
BIology sucks

ok so in my mind
the concert sucked ass
the bass section was blah....
we all got lost during great gate...
and on the last piece one of the trumpets played after the last note
i should have praticed more..
and to top that i was all the way in the back...
oh and my own family didnt even come
my mom come at the end then shes like hurry up i gotta
pik up your brother....
hmm
...
...
im looking for an old sega and 64 player
im remembering my childhood and im crazing the original mario and sonic
too bad my mom threw away mine
along with my vinyl player and vinyls
...
i now have 100g of music
i deleted 105.857
or sumthing like that....
most of it got moved to an external harddrive though...

oh school sucks..

moodswings

In A Sentimental Mood - Duke Ellington

damn how many post will i do in one day...
i really like this artist:fashawn...
i like his uniqueness
....
gotta shitload of bakingto do
for the lunch crew
...
pratice wednsday then concert thursday
.....
jazz is playin in my head
...
HIt the Head-REPO
lmao that was random..
....
more post l8r
lol

hella funny

Jacquesmorel.com listens to Charles Hamilton "Well Isn't This Awkward" from Jacques Morel on Vimeo.

i used to watch this show every saturday....

amazing how fast life goes by

so since i am a semi good student
instead of going to new roads/New orleans today
im staying home to catch up on work i didnt do
....
by the by yesterday i finished getting my hair braided
"i think my braids too tight"-Moesha...lol
....
one of my best guy friends told me a while ago that
sometimes i put myself out there
when he told me i was like what do you mean
and now i realized what he was talking about
sometimes being open isnt a good thing
....
thinking back to that person
i let him know stuff i havent even told some of my friends
.....
my thought to ponder
why welcome people into your life when they dont wanna be in it?
hmmmm

The Crazy (Original) - Wale

so.....ive been thinking about this guy

i cant really explain why im attracted to him but

i can explain what.....odd a bit



i was looking for a link to a J. Todd song

but i cant find one....

so fly lo will have to do

Gumdrop - Flying Lotus

LaDiDaDi

So this is my first post.
i wonder how long til im offically a "blogger".
......

La-Di-Da-Di - Slick Rick