may flowers

i want someone
at least for the month of may
not really to be a boy friend
or just a fuck buddy (even thought that would be *)
not tryin to seem fast but
not haveing somebody to chill with on your birthday sucks
ASS

ive been in so many sets i should get the heizman for paralyzing

ask Curren$y you kno
Incredible

two great artist, two great songs

Echo - Incubus

08 - Charles Hamilton - Stir of Echoes or Sleeping Beauty - Charles Hamilton -

ok so now

its one month til my birthday....

Sav des emissions

and i live for him...not

i think im gonna try to start hangin out with girls....
cause i realized i have a lot of guy friends and like
four girl friends...

hmm... not
some chicks are just too messy for me.

but i think im about to get screwed over backwards
cause i do dumb shit...
ugh... i need to know something but im not the type of person
that usually puts myself out there like that
but i just wanna kno so bad...

niggas these days be makin me stress too much

meatballs

soo
i just woke up
and ate some food...
lmao

and she does it again

auditions went well
messd up a little but
by thetime the show comes around imma have it down

SO EXICTED!
lmao

ok so

i just had a 90's flash back momment

i saw orange and started thinking about the rugrats...
i rember when the movie came out my uncle jimmy( who is now canadian)
took me to see it. and after we bought like 3 copies of the VHS...
i think imma wtach it before i go to sleep...

i still love
TOMMY

world cant get me

i go "back" to school tomorrow
i dont really feel like going to any classes
but i have too...
damn

moms is going to chiago wednsday
dont gotta see her for 4 days!
i would wild out but father is coming thursday night...

this weekend is fair at st pius
you should come!!!

big ups...
The new LEFT<---
...Theron Makes me laugh
"OMG lydia got suspended!"
lol

dumb

if your a guy and youhave to do this
it dosent prove that you get anything
only that your collecting condoms!

this is lame why the hell does he have so many different types anyway....
sad excuse of a dude
Joe Welsh....

stuff likt this makes me wish i was still dancing

death is gonna catch up to all one day

ARSE

so
i kno i started some stuff
i hope it dosent bite me in the ass though

audition tomorrow for talent show
exicted.....

random

i really wanted to go to nocca
but NO
was not an option for my parents...
ughhhhhhhhhhhh

and he dosent get the girl

ok so i saw that chick today
shes not that hot(no homo)
but 4 real she cant compare to me!!!!

boo im AFRICAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

by the by
i love how that nigga txtd me after prom...
i mean he didnt even speak to me there...
i wonder wat happened to his date...
two words.... SKANK HOE....
lol
i got bitches in check
like i said before im done and over with __________

very nice...

so i had to do it
i took the poll
sent to everyone in my phone...
and to tell you the truth i was really suprised cause
i do not thinki have a nice body at all.
so Thanks for all of you nice thoughts!!!

i would like to thank
black rob* for my body
w/o his forceful habits he calls
Helpful weight loss i would not
be where i am today...

lol!

cannibis

and another one

well after all the bull i went to to go to prom
it wasnt as good as i expected...
but then again i had a curfew and had to come home so...


my mother is still acting like i dont exist other than to cook and clean
my
dad called and asked me how prom went too. then i told him i got
excepted in that school. and i have to go to camp there in the
summer... then i find out
there gonna be on vaction that mounth and i have to wait til after to meet up with them... im so pissed about that!

since i gotta leave the day before my bady
ill do a thingy at my house hopefully.

one more day of my 2 day vaction left... and my mother still dosent kno...
i wanna do something other than stay in the strings room all day...

sooooooooooo

like johnny said
im bad....

i really wanna smash sombody now...
damn

BlUe pop ColOur

so we saw these amish people right
and when we got inside
i started talking to one of the dudes for like 5 mins
and he didnt saw anything
then i thought about it
Amish dont talk to "outsiders"
espically BLACK PEOPLE!!!
lol
so KA took a picture of me pointing

i touched ones booty too
but he didnt do anything....
lmao

and

i wanted to go to all city
but.....

i made red beans & rice...
not the stuff from a box but
from scratch
slow cooking
even corn bread too...
i feel black

yeah bit nig

sooooooo
today was full of faces that dont go to brhs...

first
ameer dropped by from (WOODLAWN) *dumbass....

then that nig who goes to (Zachary) that
i always see when i go out and at st pauls another *dumbass

then coach troy came and saw me
and started askin me y im not runnin today

Also that boy D-lain too.
it was so odd. i was havin such a good convo then bang i see
that nig at the door.... *wow

and when i got home my blood cuz rob from cali
is sittin on my couch...

so much in one day...not even mentioning the week

so tomorrow will be....?????????

and on top of that KA wants me to go to spencer house with her tomorrow

lalaljdh

sooooooooooo
i got suspended today...
i kno damn why!!!!!!
2 days
and the best part is
my momma dont kno!!!!!!!!
and i hope it stays that way.....

so imma chill with frazier tomorrow
i might roll by mck with him
it just depends....

mr. randall and coach knee
If i was a man
i would make then suck my nut....

i really should be pissed but
im not

And I..

need someone to get the
Just like water-lauryn hill
instrumental

is that a religious thing?

wow
i might be suspended
them bitches finally caught me skippin...
damn!
lol

i ♥ since NPR

so

i got stacks on deck
but that man called father
didnt let me use his card
so now i gotta find a way to buy rob and spencers present
before friday so it can get her next week....
ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


fast cars we zooming right by ya...

i like the way isaiah speaks
its profound and eloquent

and i gotta ask ameer for a big favor...
and chase wnats me to go to all city...
if im done with my hair ill go

Guess

What
NYLON came in.
well actually it was yesterday
but i just saw it on the table today...!

and ROBERT ILEDARE is being desperate for MILK.
lol

April

is national poetry month

so i signed myself up for that talent show
today...

im kinda scared but idk itll be my first time performing in front of people

oh yeah during my creative writing interview the guy told
me he liked my use of detail and how i try to connect each line together
so i think im in that program...

but yeah not that many people signed up so i got a realy good chance

So about that....

I am offically enrolled in boarding school
i took my placement test and everything yesterday
they made me realize i suck ass
the average gpa- 3.76 mine-3.5
average act-24 mine-21
below average... my parents have set me up for failure...
but the good thing is that the lady said they do have varsity sports
the thing is that the volleyball team is in a christian league...
but i can play soccer or run track for st. marys


ugh...
on another note
prom is some bull
i already bought all of my stuff
all i had to do is get a ticket
come to find out gotta have a mck id
so now idk even if im gonna walk in with robs friend
and im still tryin to get kelvin in
it wiukd suck ass if i dont cause i asked him to come with me
and hes flying down just for that. hopefully i can find out
before tomorrow afternoon...

things usually arent this hard for me!
sleeply can fuck himself in the ass lol

then the nigga had the nerve to ask noble if i had
found somebody to go with yet cause now he wants to tkae me again...
lol fuckin bum

sexual fustrations

times like this
when im listen to incubus
and completely pissed off that i could kill
only fuckin could make me feel better
even if it would only be for an hour or so

fustration

step into an empty room
i close the door

with the lights off i slowly remove all articles of clothing
in darkness you can not see the bodies inperfections or the shame on a face

starting at the crown of my head i feel...
slowly going down i touch...
every crevace and buldge...

amazing how a single touch could cause so much pain
even if it is your own...

running the water, hot
as if to burn away the skin that
fails to proctect me from even the smallest blow

drifting away deeper into this sea of sucidial thoughts
still completly blanketed in the darkness
it begins to consume me whole...

and i succomb to it...

when i handle my
camera problem
ill put up a vlog...
but then again a certain person
would think im just tryna jock them
rember
some girls are just creepy...
damn thats mean.
too bad Mister P would never kno

define mitosis...

in the spirit of my last quiz biwl u had to out this up

like less than

5 mins ago i got played.
and its so funny to me.
i cant believe it...

i am rotfl like a ass!
nigga said he didnt wann hurt my feelings.
shit i dont have many left to hurt anyways
fuck i had the perfect excuse to let him down easy
but nope nigga beat me to it. shit, i dont kno how i didnt see this coming.
but i do no imma be there With or Without a nigga on my arm though.
lol.
so much funny shit in one day!

standing in the ocean looking for my salvation

so
DR. Kelley called the house today to
Put in about april 16...
again.. now you would think an email would be enough
but no not for her...

so two days after is when my dad decides to get mad only because mother got mad
now wat kinda bull is that?
then she dropped in her two cents about _____'s brother which was not
her place to do.

mother said i cant do quiz bowl again. i wanted to laugh and say
Bitch wtf im going to boarding school so how can i do quiz bowl.
lmao

oh yeah
im done Fkin _____.

SHE WAS IN THE MIRROR WITH A CAMERA PHONE STRICKING A POSE

ThiS goes HrD

had to do it

soooooo...........

i hope Spencer uploads the pics soon!!!!
and hopefully i can get him his present before his birthday
rob is just gonna get his when Spencer does....

_______ is now officially a douche... cool at times but
still an asswipe. fuckin peniswrinkle.

on another matter still havent gotten the whole
prom shit figured out
i dont wanna be mean to a person but i wanna have fun that night
fuck i at least hope my mother and father still let me go after my
latest excursion

i think im going to cry out my fustrations....
its the only thing i can think of right now that can
at thes moment make me feel better besides fucking...
stupid bitch nigga... *sigh

back on venting....
if _______ ever calls me again ill pick up and let
him speak to my daddy. i dont like people who bullshit
and he proved that its his speciality

Even though

THe graphics on the bootleg werent finished
Xmen orgins was
MAD DOPE
i will be goin to see that when it comes out...

on another note
im through thinkin, now im just doing...
i thought i was in control but in actuallity i wasnt
so now im running my own boat

this past week i realized a lot of things about different people
some good some bad and i really dont give a fuck cause

What you been doin?

BITCH i been DRINKIN!
damn april 16..... a day i will never forget....
Quiz Bowl players by day
by Night we
CRAWL

"are you guys with NOBCHhEE"
-noooooooooooooooo

lmao

in front of me

Kanye West-Street Lights(SPEC) Dir:Mills Miller from MillsMillerMedia on Vimeo.

New York

wow

i like it

Zion I "Geek To The Beat" from Okayplayer on Vimeo.

this shit here

ive always wanted to sell "special" brownies
lol

do you like fish dicks

Last night i was tlkin on the
phone with a friend right and he just bust out laughing and tells me to put i ton comedy centrel.
GAy fish is some funny shit

pondering

i usually never listen to anything my sister says but ahe had a point today
she asked my mom
did she think that the holocaust was the Jewish peoples karma for killing Jesus.
and when you think about it it makes sence.
Jesus was mercilessly killed praticalled slaughtered for no reason.
and the same thing happened to the jews. even though
neither event was good it

Cette un ane...je pense

big thing happened today though. so
im chillin at my cuz elaine house since shes in town for her bday
and for some reason sleeply comes over
me and him are cool and all but he usually just drops
noble off but today he stays.
so were all just chillin. and elaine starts askin sleeply if
hes goin to prom
and whos he goin with
another bang
sleeply says hes goin with me.,
awkward silence
since im a nice person and i am friends with sleeply
i didnt kno what to say
if i say no im bein mean
if i saw yes well idk about that.....
so elaine is like thats a good idea
then my mom walks through the door and they tell her
so as of 10:49 april 10
i am going to prom with jonathan rowe (however you spell his name)
i dont know how to feel
i was gonna go anyway but damn now i have a "date"
April 24 is gonna be real awkward
especially since i kno a certain person that goes to MCK
when he finds out, damn all hell. imma be stuck with rob all next week.
hopefully if he comes to fellowship tomorrow nobody will say anything about it
i gotta find a way outta this w/o being mean

bilateral

too bad i missed my flight
i kno it suck arse!!!
but even though im gonna miss prom
ill still get to go to ny.

but thats not gonna be til
the 18.
the sucky thing is the same day i leave for ny
is the day i come back from st. louis.
but then i come back on the 20.
so i guess you could say im missin school.

easter egg hunt

it was for little kids
but me and derek said hey we wanna do it to!

idk why i look so odd though

any one who has...

any
flying lotus
dr. who dat
fashawn
pac div
tribe
de la soul
souls of mischeif
Charles hamilton
common
amanda diva EPs
drake
currency
cool kids
ronny my

please either send me the link on zshare or send me the file to my email(if you do ill give it to you)
please please please!!!!

vjbjkd

since my laptop has a virsus
my hard drive has to be cleared out and rewired

this means
all of my music on it is gone
and i didnt back any of it up

fly lo
dr. who dat
gb
tribe
CH
the pac div ep
de la soul
M.I.A.
fashawn
blu
drake
and many many more

if i could verbalize my fustration no one would be able to understand it
thankfully i have a few of the artist on the desktop
buta all of the ne music i just got and some of my favs were
on my laptop!

this is laptop 2 to be messed up
Laptop 1 some how patricia messed up my Internal speakers
then my momma steped on it

now tith laptop 2
i think my brother watched porn on it but idk

2days til.......

SOOO
i started workin on something for the talent show
Brent, who i didnt really know how deep he was til recently, says
what i have so far is good.
hopefully i dont bug out last minute and not do it at all
i think ill let theron shrck it out too.
me and him are so weird
we became friends cause i started tlkin about how
big his booty was
now we read each otheres poetry.

SOOOO.....

Tomorrow is
SPRING FAIR
im kinda excited
but then again that means im going to be at school
from 7 to 4. but
we almost finished the oz mural!
so imma get my movie passes!
....loose as a goose...
lmao
went to catholic today and
my beastie pissed me off
but at least he was nice enough to apologize

Pat is DJ'ing for tomorrow too
i hope he brings mike nasty!!!!!

so theron said i should read one of my poems for
the talent show... i think i should

And then they played Dilla

is a really hot mixtape...

-today was mad crazy though. i got Loose as a goose!
this dude had punched me in My six pack todaya and i was like
you kno im pregnant right, wat if you killed my baby. dude was like
my bad. so i said so when i have a miscarriage i should just tell my baby
daddy oh ye jonathan said it was his bad. i was rotfl! cause dude actually believed me.
-I will never Bear any mans SEED in my WOMB!

-i finally talked to Ms. Ladeta yesterday, she told me that
KAtherine-aimee has a strong personality and i shouldnt succumb to it...
she also said that im one of her babies so she dosent want to see me in any
messy situations...Ex. DEvin Guillory...
lol MS. Ladeta dosent even know half of it, but im not gonna disappoint her though
i respect her too much

-I and the rest of my fellow counterparts leave for St. Louis
from the SU mini dome at 8 PM april 13. Im so exicted...Yay...not

-yeah by the by since the release of the air yeezys i have seen 1
person with the on. the infamous Isaiah Mayfield.
now that dude always has a pair of fresh kicks. but today i was like damn
you better work then kick with yo thick ankles... lol

-my knuckle is swollen from when me and nick were fighting yesterday
i miss ellis though. he was like a big brother to me.. but nick is never gonna
replace him but he can be my buddy.

-so Yeah i finally figured out what im getting rob and Spencer. YAY. took me forever
to find something that i thought both of them would like so now i just gotta
get a pre paid visa and buy it cause i aint got no debt card anymore... sucks ass!
i wanna buy a gift for another person but i dont txt them anymore. i mean
purple is a dope dude and all but it was a waste of time.

-I cant wait til graduation parties start!!!!
i gotta play in ours idk about MCK now since they got that dude Mr. johnson. ( i think thats his name) but yeah imma be workin on my goose but ill be sad too
cause all my people are leaving me.

_one last point
Me and nick were talkin about BM for some odd reason and we can up with a phrase for the water that pops you in the ass when your shittin... < that DROp POP
lmao!

Mommy Dearest

im going to become a nun
just to show her how much i can about my potential

EGg hunting

me and dereck are gonna take pictures with the easter bunny
if you want a copy they are five dollars each!!!
you should too.
ST. Pius X catholic church
its gonna be after 10:30 mass around 11:45

its gonna be fun! we got a real bunny!

Church

OMG
so i realized that my knees really need to heal up
cause spring break is almost here and i want to be able to move freely.
too bad i cant compete in state gym meet. ( i never got my backhand spring)
thats how my knees got all scratched up anyways.

but yeah my father came home this weekend and that dude bought a crap load of dresses.
and they actually look nice. Now i finally have a dress for francis lewis!!
my daddy says im gonna leave Thursday and go to mass with him friday then ill ride the train to new york that night. so im exicted!!!
and i guess since i have dress now ill go to MCK or CHS prom but
that nigga at MCK aint buy the damn tickets yet. so idk if ill still go with him. lol
but im sure my beastie KEvin is gonna buy our tickets for CHS.

oh yeah friday my momma had on some high waters right so were were ribbing on her real bad. so then saturday i took my ACT right and the administrator had on some high waters too. mayne i couldnt stop laughing so i called her to tell her
and the police lady was like no phones til you exit the building! but yeah. noble drove the van and in the van was Me, noble, mike green, chris and Pierre. the only person i actually knew was Pierre. but it was fun we drove to spi when we should have
walked but then we dropped everybody else back at Brh and left.

Mayne this is a long entry!

but idgaf! lmao. i thinkin getting a car real soon. but who knows. and im planning
on spending my summer in Virgina with my dad so i can actually make some real money.
i think im gonna be workin in the Nike store or be a desk sectary at NSF for my daddy. the desk job is gonna be kinda lame but money is money. Im gonna plan a bday bash at my house then casue im gonna be leaving. Gonna have a space walk and a water slide and Food and food and candy and music. i hope my momma lets me do it too. maybe she could get me a car for that day...i only hope.

this is really long and probably has typos. and this boy named hunter is standing behind me reading everything i just typed! lol. hi hunter how are you?

Sad faces in the mirror

Its skip day at
MCK and my round cant pickme up.

Mindless self indulgence*

it sucks that my laptop has a virus
then the desktop is acting booty too.
i haven't gotten to download the new CH
or buy my dress...
Its getting kinda close to holy week and
i need to get it soon so their both in before
1. the prom
2. Easter

then as i usually do
i have injured myself yet again
this time i have 2nd degree burns on my knees
you wanna know how....Carpet burn. yeah its that bad.
and it hurts like hell. People have been telling me im
walking like i got some good dick but when i tell them
there just like your should just say you got fucked really good.

and the weekend is here
got act tomorrow then since my dad is in town he is taking sister and i
out shopping for Easter then that meeting at southern. im dreading talking
to ms. Ladeta...

*oddest moment of my week*
so my sister and i dont get along but
she covered my ass tuesday night.
i owe her big time. but i did have fun during my little escapade.